A trio of men: status update
(1) Hot Marine. First of all, I am absolutely in love with this moment. So much so, in fact, that I think I convinced myself to hit the big red self-destruct button on whatever it is that goes on between the two of us. I usually send him a highly edited version of whatever I write about him after our little hookups, but last week he complained that what I send him is “conspicuously edited,” so in a moment of idyllic daydreaming last night, I sent him the entire post, untouched, unedited, uncropped. Translation: I opened myself up to complete vulnerability and essentially admitted, out loud, with no dancing around it, that my feelings for him go a lot deeper than just a casual fuck-buddy. And I haven’t heard a word from him since. I have been absolutely glued to my inbox waiting to hear something, anything from him. Anything at all. I guess I’m glad I soaked up that moment because that just might have been the last one I’ll get to experience. Le sigh.
Edited to add: I heard back from him shortly after publishing this post. Surprisingly, his reaction was rather endearing, which makes me glad I sent it in the first place. Phew.
(2) The random dude. Remember how I’d been emailing / chatting with this random guy last week? He gave off the impression of being weak / whiny / ball-less / insecure / overcompensating / clueless / cheesy / submissive so I decided to ditch him without ever meeting him for coffee to give him the benefit of the doubt. Why should I? Guys ditch me left and right, so I reserve the same right. This guy left me a voicemail tonight (because I screened his call), and I got so completely turned off by the tone of voice in his message that I wrote this guy off as done, done, and done. Moving on.
(3) The interesting male prospect. Now this guy I’m actually somewhat excited about, and I’ll be meeting him for coffee tomorrow (Monday) night. He has me highly intrigued, makes me laugh, and seems highly entertained by the crazy / quirky things that tend to come out of my mouth. I’m proceeding with caution since I’ve yet to actually see him in person, but I’ve got my fingers crossed for tomorrow night. Hopefully he’ll be a nice / normal guy, if that’s even possible anymore – ha. Wish me luck on this one.
