Mentally checked out
I have a little bit of a dilemma. Being completely fed up with my job, and knowing that (hopefully) I’ll be out of there in six months, I’ve already “checked out” mentally, and I think my boss is starting to notice. Not good. It’s been a combination of little things over the past few weeks – a comment here, an extra request there, and an obvious ambivalence toward anything work-related. It doesn’t help that lately I’ve been working with a team of people who, honestly, I don’t really enjoy working with. There’s a lot of drama and office politics, and I’ve gone through it enough times with this particular team that I’ve just stopped caring about it. It’s drama for the sake of drama, and I have no patience for that.
I just wish those grad school notification letters would come in already, so at least I’ll know where I stand and what I can afford to do (or not afford to do) with the job situation. I feel like a lame duck, biding my time until I can officially submit my resignation. IF I can submit my resignation. I have to get in somewhere, after all. Ahhhhhh! I’m so nervous about the whole situation. What if I don’t get in anywhere? What then? Stay at a job that’s driving me crazy? Or quit and move to the west coast anyway, and find a new job? Doing what – something new, or the same old BS? Oh, the waiting is just killing me!
Letters aren’t expected until at least February, so I have a solid 1-2 months of waiting to go. [insert Jeopardy music...]
Edited to add: HOLY SHIT! Speak of the devil… I just received an email from a professor saying that she read my application and is interesting in chatting. Nothing official, but a damn good sign! Yessssssssss!!!!!! : )
Male advice: DON’T let them know your outta there! Always make them think you’re all about that job until it’s time to leave. I could not be more serious. Love ya, mean it!!
-Matt
January 7th, 2010 at 4:51 amI am going to second that, don’t let them think you are out of there. My experience in corporate America is that they will find a reason to let you go if they really believe you are leaving. And in this economy if companies can cut deadwood, they will.
On the other hand – congrats on the contact from a school. I know it is unofficial, but if you have one faculty member interested in you its a great opportunity. That means if you make a good impression someone is talking you up to the admissions committee in the department.
January 7th, 2010 at 11:24 amI agree with the boys. If you can put it out of your head completely, rather than waiting anxiously, you can better focus on the work in front of you. In this market it is downright dangerous to act like you have one foot out the door because companies will gladly help you with the other. Good luck on your acceptance! (By the by, what are you going to get your masters in?)
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That is an amazing sign, congrats!
January 7th, 2010 at 6:56 pmFingers crossed for you!!! I am sure you would have some exciting adventures in Grad School.
January 8th, 2010 at 11:07 am