Blog, what happened to us?
Dear blog,
There was once a time when I could tell you everything, when you were my BFF, when I would tell you things that I didn’t tell anyone else, and when I could write freely and openly and really spill my guts to you. Remember those days? Ah yes, I remember them fondly. But blog, what happened to us? Why aren’t you my BFF anymore? I have to admit, my dear blog, that I have some interesting information that I’ve been mulling over for a few days now, and I’ve been holding out on you all this time. Yes, you read that right. I’ve betrayed you, and I just don’t think I feel comfortable putting my guts out on the table with you anymore. What a sad, sad situation this has become.
Is it because someone in my real life barged into our little world that time? Is it because I’ve grown jaded and vulnerable and can’t bear to cut open that scar tissue anymore? What is it, blog? What happened to our great relationship?
It’s only the posts that leave me the most exposed, the most naked, the most raw and imperfect that I can’t bear to share with you anymore. The posts that truly define me as a human being. The posts that I started up this blog to write about in the first place. The best posts, really. The posts that help me deal with things, that help me get things out of my head, that free me from that internal chaos that stews and festers and drives me crazy.Â
I don’t know what to tell you, my dear blog. There’s something missing between us now. I hate that it’s missing, and I don’t know how to fix it. I miss you. I want you back. I don’t where to go from here.
Love always,
~DD
DD, I wish you well with whatever it is. What worked before doesn’t have to work today, so you’ve just got to do what feels like it serves you well.
If that leaves the blog in the dark, so be it.
February 26th, 2010 at 5:50 amSteve Errey´s last blog ..Be Afraid, Be Very Afraid
Fear of getting exposed probably? Makes sense to me though as you were burnt before…You can still continue writing in private blog posts, to get things out of your chest. Wish you the best.
February 26th, 2010 at 6:52 amwhat is it?! tell it!
February 26th, 2010 at 2:24 pmWhatever it is you’ve been mulling over I hope it’s good-interesting. I don’t keep a blog myself, but I can only imagine that sharing here after having your anonymity shattered is a lot like deciding to let someone new “in” after having your heart broken.
If it’s right, it will come in time. And if not, well, I’m sure I’m not the only one here who wishes that whatever it is works out well for you.
February 26th, 2010 at 9:34 pmThere’s power in wearing a mask, it frees you up to say the things you don’t say in everyday life.
February 28th, 2010 at 5:46 pmI think that incident (you know the one) really did a number on me with resect to being able to write openly on this blog, and I’ve never really bounced back from that. Hopefully one day I will. I miss my bloggy freedom…
March 1st, 2010 at 10:34 pmThe Dateable Dork´s last blog ..Blog, what happened to us?