Exhausted
These last few days have been a total blur. I’m completely exhausted. Between a few long days at work and a bunch of other crap that I’m not going to get into (it’s not every exciting, trust me), I’ve just about HAD it. Seriously. One thing I can talk about on here is the new male prospect and what total bullshit this whole situation has turned into. It is absolutely ridiculous that we can’t meet up as friends and catch up in person. I seriously haven’t seen him in almost two years, and he’s going to be right near my apartment this weekend, and he absolutely refuses to stop by unless I’ll hook up with him, which I absolutely refuse to do. This is incredibly childish and I fucking hate it. Hate it!!! Despite our sketchy past, the NMP has really helped me out a lot over the years (emotionally more than anything else), and I would genuinely like to be friends with him, but he is making it absolutely impossible, and I really hate that and am incredibly disappointed in the entire situation. Grrrrr.
But here’s the good news: it was gorgeous out today – about 60 degrees and sunny, and I got to spend most of the day outside. The feeling of the warmth of the sun on my face was absolutely wonderful, and I can’t wait until I can feel that everyday. I’m not so sure that my big move to the west coast is going to happen after all, but I still have the New York summer to look forward to, and I really can’t wait. Ahhhhh, warmth. Like I’ve said before, just there’s something amazing about being warm.
Oh the balls on this guy, first the “sneak attack” and now “I’ll see you, but you’ll have to fuck me to get me to do it”.
If it weren’t for the fact he’d still try to hook up with you, I’d say tell him that he owes you a visit since he already got his hookup on the phone the other day…
Lose his phone number, don’t meet him, don’t let him “change his mind, its ok we don’t have to hook up”. It’ll be BS. Seriously DD, you don’t need this crap.
March 17th, 2010 at 8:44 ammy two cents is this: if he won’t hang out without the hook-up he doesn’t give a shit about being your friend. He just wants to get his rocks off and it almost doesn’t matter where, you just seem, to him, like a sure thing, if he pursues it long enough.
He’s worthless. Any value he had for you in the past is collected. But over.
Move on to someone who wants more than just what resides at the top of your legs.
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I know, right? He’s being a total douchebag! I just hate it.
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