The Dateable Dork

Hello my dears!  : )

I’m so sorry that I’ve been MIA for so long!  To be honest, I didn’t even realize how long it had been until I just saw that my last post was a solid month ago, yikes!

Here’s a quick update on what’s been going down these days:

(1) Moving is totally and completely stressing me out.  I was on the verge of a panic attack a few days ago, which was the culmination of several weeks of non-stop planning and making arrangements and overall driving myself insane.

(2) Downsizing my life to such a huge extent is a lot harder than I thought it would be.  This is crazy!  I have been essentially getting rid of everything I own, including all my furniture, which is apparently impossible to sell!  WTF, right?

(3) Moving from one crowded city with no parking to another crowded city with no parking is a major pain in the ass and is insanely expensive.  I am hemorrhaging money!

I’m still waiting for my “Summer of DD” to kick in… but I don’t think it’s coming anytime soon!  The only time I’ll be able to relax is after this move is over and done with, which won’t be for probably another 2 weeks.  Ugh.  Thank god I’m not working right now because all I do all day is plan this move – it’s a full time job in and of itself.  I don’t know how in the world I would have been able to do it while still at my job!  (And BTW, I don’t miss that job one bit!  Yay!)

Ahhhhhh, I am just so stressed out and anxious, and I’m not sleeping very well, and even though I keep crossing things off my to-do list, the list never gets any shorter.  Let me tell ya – making a big move like this – all by yourself! – is just insane. 

Little bits of excitement to report:

- Last week I went up to Boston for a few days to paint my new apartment (i.e., the crash pad).  I love the way it came out, but here’s the lesson learned: taking 3 days to paint an entire apartment by yourself in mid-July with no air conditioning is NOT a good idea.  Never again!

- I’ve been up to Boston a few times in the last month or so, and every time I walk through the campus I feel this crazy overwhelming sense of excitement and adrenaline.  I absolutely can’t wait to get started.  All kidding aside, this is seriously a dream come true for me.  I am thrilled beyond belief and am so incredibly fortunate to have been offerred this opportunity.  It’s unreal.

- I slapped my face up on the online dating dumpster a few weeks ago to round up a few dates in Boston after I move, and I have a handful of prospects that I’m semi-excited about.  Nothing overly exciting, but at least this will give me the opportunity to meet people up there and to learn my way around the city a bit.  There has been some cute texting with one guy in particular, but you really never know until you meet in person, so we’ll see how it goes after the move.

- I’m very excited to get my furry ball of love (i.e., the cat), but that probably won’t be for another month or so.

Interesting tidbits about infamous regulars on this blog:

- The NMP and I didn’t talk for about a month or so after the fallout on Memorial Day weekend when he was being totally childish and I kicked him out of my apartment for the second time in a row.  Just this past week we kind of worked things out – kind of – and are now at least talking again, which is good.  I don’t know if we can really move forward with a decent friendship at this point, but things are better than they were.

- You’ll all LOVE this one: After three and a half years, I finally gathered up the strength to delete David (aka Hot Marine) from my life.  This move to Boston is such a great opportunity to refine and purge, and I guess it was the perfect push that I needed to finally do this.  I deleted 3.5 years worth of emails, all the miscellaneous photos of him I had on my computer, his phone number, and his email address.  GONE.  Done and done.  Love it!!!  I know it took me a really long time to reach this point, but I’m really proud of myself for doing this.  It feels really, really good.  : )

- Interestingly enough, this move is also forcing me to look back on my six years in New York and evaluate where I stand and how I want to leave things, and, for my own sense of closure and peace of mind, I sent one final apologetic note to The Editor.  Looking back, that incident was truly a defining moment in my life, and I haven’t been the same person since.  I feel horribly about the way I behaved and the fact that I hurt him, and so I sent him a quick email to let him know just how much that whole experience shook me and how badly I still feel about it.  I don’t expect anything in response, but I just needed to send it.

Anyway… my big moving day is July 31 (a week from today!), so at least the end is near.  Give me strength!!!

How have you all been doing??  : )